at night

pain slips through my veins,

surges through my heart

rests upon my chest,

I gaze at the stars and feel

the emptiness that you left behind

I feel hollow

I feel drained

so pointless it seems

when you're not around,

so meaningless and forced

to smile,

to hope,

to live,

and yet I do,

I smile through my pain

I hope through my worries

and take breaths of life

that make me go on,

I am relentless in staying afloat,

even when I drown in my past

fighting the waves,

uncertain of my future

and fearing the things that make me whole,

that make me human

because the same things that glue me together

are also tearing me apart...

I am here world

look at me,

even though I'm broken

I'm still here...

caring,

loving,

feeling,

I am part of a bigger plan

that I do not comprehend,

slowly filling in the gaps

and always looking for clues

I am here world

still here,

still smiling,

carrying a heart

capable of fitting

all of this hot mess...

I am here world, here I am...