enough

i thought i deserved

to bleed my hurt

in waves,

oceans wild and

salting my wounds

i thought i deserved

to mourn our love

in storms,

winds heavy and

battering my skin

i thought i deserved

to miss her touch

in dreams,

mind clouded and

tricking my heart

but i don’t deserve

to bleed, to mourn,

to miss

a touch that loved

to hurt me.