Shaking - A Coming Out Poem

my hands are shaking

stepping forward, I look my mother in the eye

we're both about to cry

and she's shaking

shaking me

screaming how could you do this to me

you're the only daughter I've got

and I'm shaking

shaking with fear

fear of my mother

I knew what to do

but I couldn't leave my little brother

and he's shaking

he's shaking

trying to make me wake up

as blood flows from my wrist

all because my mother hates who I kiss

and the world is shaking

and shaking

and I'm seizing

my brother is screaming

the doctors running, trying to save me

but it's too late

and he's shaking

he's shaking

the doctor, he's shaking his head

I'm looking from above now

I flatlined

I can finally give my father a hug now

no longer shaking