Tunnel Vision

I was happy.

I was so, so happy.

I was happier than I'd ever been.

But, I was in so deep

That I got tunnel vision.

I thought things would go on like that

Forever.

I couldn't even imagine

That one day

It would fade into nothingness.

Now, here I am

Somewhere I never thought I'd be.

And it hurts.

It hurts to look back on what I had.

It hurts to remember how I felt.

It hurts to understand that it's gone.

I wish I'd known.

I should've expected this to happen.

But, I just couldn't.

I was so happy.

I was so happy with what I had.

And it hurts to know that the feeling is gone.

If I'd been able to see ahead

Maybe I could've changed things.

Maybe things didn't have to end so sourly like this.

Maybe I'd still be happy now.

But, I couldn't see ahead.

I lived happily, so happily

But unknowing of what was to come.

The sadness that would ensue.

The pain I would feel.

And right now

Everything hurts.

This emptiness hurts so much.

The worst part is

I can't look ahead at all

But I can only look back.