Look what you’ve done

You've made a fool of everyone.

Is this what numbness will start to feel like.

Sober numbness.

Never thought I could reach this point.

Should I drink to distract myself?

I can't do drugs.

Too much money.

I'm seriously considering this.

Oh devil you have outdone me.

Pray.

Do your homework.

Give me a picket sign. Make it black and white.

I will satisfy my needs again.

So I can't feel bad for things.

She's a piece of shit.

I hate her.

I hate everyone.

I can't even love myself.

What kind of shit is that.

Pain you don't make me a believer. And you don't make him anything but hurt.

Hurt

Pain

That's all there is to love and life

Spoiler alert.

Sorry kids.

Nothing to look forward to.

Maybe you do, and the ones that don't, there isn't shit for you on the other side.

No one is there waiting for you

No cares. Maybe if you bleed a little but other than that no.

What can kill me.

What can reassure me that I will be numb.

I don't want to smoke.

That's how depressed I am.

Drinking is beautiful.

The intoxications fill up my body

Holding me, warming my heart while it says "I got you don't worry, just let go"

When no one else will.

When the one you want was just a fantasy. Just fake.

Nothing of this is real.

I will drink and enjoy myself.

Why not.

Why can't I do this sober.

Maybe it will make me stronger.

I'm weak 7 days a week.

I will choke all of you down.

Not real

It's not real

This is all not real

It's not real it's not real.

Take me away