Analyzing my Creative Process

Well, I'd like to start out with saying that my determination to write and post something everyday lasted about two weeks.  About what I had expected, though I do wish I had a bit more "grit" as my psych teacher puts it.  

I set out on this project with a goal in mind- to become a more disciplined writer.  I thought that if I could get myself to write at least one complete piece every day, it would help me to become a better writer.  If I had stuck with it, it probably would have.  But even though I failed, I feel like I learned something about myself nonetheless.

I don't like forcing myself to write. Plain and simple; I absolutely hate writing because I told myself to do so.  I am a binge writer.  Whenever I get an idea, I sit down and start writing and before I know it I have five or six poems done.  Then, I post the ones I like to prose over a course of a few hours/days.  During those times, it feels like I'll never run out of inspiration- the ideas just seem to pop into my head.  But if I sit down and tell myself to write, or if I just sit down thinking I want to write, nothing comes.  Well, I can usually think of something eventually, but that usually means taking something random from my environment and making something up as I go.  The only one of my recent pieces that came out this way that I think was successful was "Little Blue Box."  It was actually inspired by a small wooden box I managed to seal shut using blue tissue paper and craft glue at a girl scout meeting.

But a lot of the poems I like best were created while I was in the midst of my 'binge writing' episodes.  So maybe that's a terrible way to write, but I'm going to stick with it.  I'd rather write a really good poem every two-three weeks than a mediocre one every day.