i loved and love

i loved you when you held me,

when you kissed me out of the blue,

when you laid next to me,

when you told me you loved me.

i loved you when you left,

when i wasn’t good enough,

when you loved someone else,

when you didn’t love me.

I loved you when you reappeared,

when you casually checked in,

when you would start a conversation,

and then disappear again.

I loved you when we decided to hang out,

when we laughed like old times,

when you touched me,

when you wanted me back.