Aloof, A Love

Open eyes, open hands to the world,

you love only the way a man could,

with reckless abandon,

Jesus fills you up and I-

I am cautious.

I am cautious like a woman,

I am cautious like someone who knows what she can lose.

Trauma haunts your very past,

and maybe deep at night,

but you are a savior, 

you can keep yourself busy with others' pain,

and not your own.

No woman is a savior,

we are mothers,

drenched in everyday suffering,

while you can drive out demons,

we fix the daily bread,

but who's to say we're less worthy?

For monsters come in many forms, 

and all kill.

Forgive me if I say no,

if I close my heart off to the poor,

the weary, 

the heartbroken.

I can't love everyone,

only those I think I can help.

Only those,

who won't drag me down with them.