To all the boys I’ve loved before by Jenny Han

'When I first moved here, before I knew your true personality' i thought this was my greatest decision. I hadn't known you for long. We had met on a dating website about a year and a half before moving. Every night we would talk and each word pulled me deeper. I fell in love with you and one day you brought up the idea of moving to Michigan, where you lived. I was unsure at first but it was for you. So I moved. Everything was good when I first moved in with you. Until your true colors began to show. You became very controlling and verbally abusive. I ignored them though that was my mistake. You got worse, you began to hit me. I didn't go to work for a week at one point because you thought I was with someone else and you gave me so many bruises I could barely move. I didn't know what to do. I was in love but I hated the abuse. If I called the police you'd stop loving me. I tried my best not to get you mad and avoid getting hit. But after today I was done. You got drunk, began accusing me of things I "had done". You hit me repeatedly saying everything was my fault. I tried stopping you but you continued. I was broken and I was done with all this abuse. Once you were done hitting me I was covered in blood feeling as if someone had a knife in every inch of my body twisting it as I moved. I cleaned up and went to bed. The next morning you were gone so I went to the police station. I reported you. They arrested you once I got home and you tried to say I was lying. I moved back to Oregon where I met someone who not one finger he put on me. It took me 3 years to get over this trauma. But it's finally gone. Never again will I allow someone abuse me like you did.