AN ERRAND

It always happens

Every time they read me

Every time they talk to me

Every time I make them laugh

Every time we have a successful conversation

Every time,

They get a glimpse of the human I am

It sounds to me that they keep on forgetting

Forgetting I am constantly changing

Forgetting my atoms and molecules

Destroy and re-create themselves every second that is passing

Every time,

They make the same mistakes

They get too familiar after some compliments

They get too personal after some laughters

They get too impolite after some dates

They get too shady after some sarcasm

Every time,

They think they know me

They think they understand me

They think they can decide for me

They think they can talk about me

They think we are friends, relatives

They think they can call me "bae", "boo".

They think they can place judgements on my actions

Every time,

I look at it the same way

I feel I know what will happen later

I have memorised the "hypocrite" speech

I have become accustomed to the "jealousy" scenes

I become the bearer of the "lonely soul"

Every time,

Yet I stay and live it to the fullest

I never give up on myself

I know there will be some growth soonest

I never think of them making fools of themselves

Every time,

I see a special soul

Looking for other almost identical special souls

Who they could call their soulmates

Souls they could relate to.

Every time,

I see me, looking for myself

Finding myself and yet

Not knowing what to do with myself