dim

i smile more now that Ive completely

burnt out; raw ends sear but this one

sizzles. tv static

to entertain my mind

have you ever touched yourself

with a vibrator so long fire

numbed to ache

This feels the same.

i smile more now-

angels need that sort of thing;

laughter and

billowing white comforters

and being told they are loved

that they with their

sixty-watt hazy-haloes are enough,

that in my mind I am not searching for brighter lights.

i smile more now

because it sells the lie