Last Wishes

I wish you knew exactly what I meant….

When I screamed at you

When I wished you weren’t in my life

When I called you names

When I made you worry

When I found the balls to stand up

When I slammed the door shut in your face

I wish you knew exactly what I meant…

That I love you

And...thank you

Now, I am standing over your grave with a single pink rose—not ready to put it on the wooden box. I never got the chance to say how much you meant to me. Mom, I’m sorry I wish you knew exactly what I meant when I chose anger over love.