Surrender
I promise Susan,
The void was better yesterday
My eyes were not as swollen
My cheeks not as wet
My heart empty
But not feeling
As broken
As it has been
The rational mind
Believed
That maybe
Time was
On my side and
Healing was
Possible
But it was
Premature
Today the limbic system
Kicked in again
And I became
Aware
Aware of absence
Of pain
Of a heart
Broken
By your absence
The feelings
Spread into the void
Pushing it
Back open
Until the tears flowed
In the great chasm
And I was forced to
Surrender
Becoming a part of
The emptiness
Your untimely loss
Has created