I Win

It's not like I've beaten the depression

That takes years of fighting and even then...

But today I can proudly say

That I win

I am happy for others

And the people they have found love with

Instead of feeling jealous

And simply alone

I am excited to see my friends succeed

Instead of craving their success

And feeling as if I'm left behind

I am contempt with where I am

Instead of wishing for someone else's life

And wanting to skip the journey ahead

Yes

There is still this distant aching in my chest

An empty hole of wanting someone to hold

A cold prison of yearning recognition

A blind hunger of searching wonder

But today

It doesn't control me

Today

I am victorious