A Story

There is a reason why I lock

All I know in a cage

It's better for me to rot away

Then people to know

I know too much

I couldn't keep the facade

I should never have spoken

No one should have ever been told

It should have been kept a secret

Maybe you can send me back

With all these memories

And let me go through all of this again

Let me choose something else

And see where I go

Back to kindergarten

When we became friends

Let me fix our damaged relationship

Skip forward to second and tell L

If she stops mailing me

I will eventually get her phone number

And spam her

Tell K

That excuses don't matter

That I'll always be your friend

And when I first meet C and E

Don't choose to dislike them

Immediately become friends with them

It's fate anyway

Remember to go to Old Settlers in fourth

And stop a disaster in its tracks

Save someone

Who began to fall apart

In fifth grade when M comes

Become real friends with her

So she doesn't forget I exist

And sixth grade when he passes

Don't let it show

Don't randomly cry in the middle of class

I can change my fate

I can save my friends

We don't need to be upset

Everything can be fine

I know it can

I might have to relive my entire life

But that doesn't matter

If I can change our fate

I hate this life

Having to deal with all this

I want everyone to be fine

I want to fix all our problems

Solve all our pain

I want it all to stop

She's so upset

She doesn't know

She mustn't know

If she knew

She'd try to change what I think

But that's impossible

If they knew

I think they would all be surprised

Because no one knows

Really anything about me

Yes my dad is dead

And all my friends are stuck

In too deep mud

Maybe they would think

That I was making all this up

They don't have a clue who I am

I'm just a facade

Of the real me

They don't know what I'm willing to do

To save all of us

They've heard it before

But I don't think they believed me

It's hard to believe I know

That I would do that

That I could.