You are not my story

I'm sad

What are you sad about?

I'm sad that I don't get my fairy tale

Your said because you don't get this fairy tale

What if this wasn't the right one?

What if I just wanted it so much that I made him into a real boy

But couldn't cut the strings

And that was torture 

For us both

So let it be 

as it should 

Let it glow and grow

It still is based in love

No matter the ending 

Or beginning 

Ok what else?

I'm mad

About?

I'm mad that he didn't choose me

I'm mad that I gave him a choice....

Aw fuck….

I'm mad because somewhere I learned you stay in the name of love. I learn that my value as a human is contingent on your reciprocation. I need to dissect this because it's feel gross

I don't know why she stayed but I learned it's what you do

I stayed because what else is there to do

I stayed because torture feels redemptive 

I stayed because I don't know where to go next 

I stayed because it fit without trying on

I stayed because it takes away choice 

I stayed because uncomfortable is my comfort 

I stayed because you are right

I stayed because I'm too emotional

I stayed because I'm needy

I stayed because I'm scared 

I stayed because I'm paying a price 

I stayed because it's there

I stayed because of hope....

What the is hope? Seriously. 

I’m owning my story

I need to tell my story

You are not my story

You are a chapter 

You will be edited 

You will be important 

Because you are

But you are not my story