My Mind

heart racing 

fingers scrolling 

googling answers 

writing endings 

process logic 

nerves tingling 

ears ringing 

brain bursting 

racing thoughts 

pins and needles tiptoed on my lips 

tears streaming

stitching the quilt 

tieing the thread lose 

nibbling on insanity 

entertaining theories 

coloring in the lines

sketching the ending 

trying to foretell the future 

paranoia wave that washes my face 

flashbacks 

car crash into the present 

the battle between real or fake 

higher standards 

push down by the force of society 

running in circles 

ideas trapped in thoughts 

screaming inside 

and dying slowly 

signals blurred 

pages burned from this chapter of life

acting on impulse 

drawing conclusions 

breaking the pen 

allow logic 

to override 

the heart 

because the heart treacherous 

but so is the brain 

anxiety arisen 

best response 

bite my lip 

till it bleeds blood 

and swallow my tongue 

and let life write itself