Stubborn Words

I am a person of many words... But just don't know how to say those many words.

It's strange how when I'm alone, I can say anything I want and not feel ridiculous. Within my mind, there is a place where I feel safe from all the ridicule. Maybe that's why I rather have conversations in my head instead of going up to a person and saying "Hi." 

Though, it's not just about being timid. 

Why is it that when I have a theory I want to discuss or something that I just need to get off my chest, I can't say all that I want? It's there in my mind, but it'll rather be stubborn than to let me get my point across. Sometimes it annoys me, and sometimes I feel like a mute resorting to writing out my feelings so you can better understand them.

Yet in the end, the latter isn't all that bad.