This is acting right ............

your words are like swords 

your form fist with your stares 

you press down on my skin 

you leave tattoed imprints 

of pain 

you tear my heart into 

you charged battery against my brain 

you wrap me in your lies 

you tie a rope to my neck and lead me astray 

your an  attention whore

you get inside the brain 

and implant maggots 

that gnaw at my soul 

you presence is like a ghost and lingers on my skin 

you collect my tears and bathe in them 

you charge me guilty in the courtroom 

you manipulate reality 

you drop blood from my heart 

your sorrys are toothfaced 

you push me down into the ground 

you kiss my wrist and pull me into you 

and pat my head 

and tell if I behaved better I wouldn´t be treated this way

you suck on my breast 

suckle down my salty tears and woes 

you crawl in a fetal postion 

when I get up and stand straight and curse your fucking ass out 

you tell me I make the hard times harder 

you toil long hard hours in your room 

laying in the bed 

I pour all my passion in you 

I harvested my hopes in you 

begging you to give me life 

make me feel alive 

all you did was make me feel dead 

I kissed your lips 

and I breathed in carbon dioxide 

I work so damn hard to save this fragile 

story from falling apart 

I wasted my winter break pouring bucket of tears into the phone to get you to understand I love you , But you hurt me 

I built the walls from love sweat and blood 

and tears 

trying so fucking DAMN HARD TO SAVE YOU 

FROM DROWNING ALONE 

so shit I took the rope that you lead me on and tied a break to it 

and sunk deep in the river of pain 

praying you come home and fall into my arms 

and we pull back the seams of the curtain 

and let the love flow in you 

I tried tdamn it 

why the hell wasn´t I good enough 

why did you have to hit me 

and not her 

why did you have to choke me in front everyone  

shit I am sorry that your scared to lose me 

but you already lost me 

your lying next to a ghost 

I fall in asleep in my coffin 

I fall asleep to another lie this was love 

and that you loved me 

I was the butt of the joke in this romance 

a mere jester something to laugh at 

are laughs conjoined and high pitched 

sway and fall in line with each other 

are hands wrapped into each other's part 

I was the actress 

you were the actor 

but what I didn´t know I was the supporting actress ......................