His Eyes

I never loved him

I loved how he saw me

The version of me

In his hopeful eyes

Was intoxicating

Was sobering

Was laughable

Was terrifying

I could never be sure if he really saw me

I could never be sure if I let him

I was afraid he was wrong about me

I was afraid he was right

I never wanted him to know

I never wanted to know myself

I would never test the theory

I would never challenge the fairytale

So I kept myself away

I let who he thought I was

Become who I would always be

In his eyes