I Know You Guys Were Rooting For Me

I heard a lot of laughter, and I heard a lot of chanting; chanting my name

And I knew I could do it, if I just put my mind to it, but something was holding me back.

I couldn’t shrug off the feeling of a life left unfinished.

Of loopholes that are beyond my control; because I could never take control.

And I could never put a key into a lock, or put a foot into an open door.

I could never grasp the concept of letting someone get to me, or becoming someone else, or believing in what I needed to believe in.