I’m Happy and It’s Repulsive

I feel so gross lately

because every time 

I look at clouds

all I see are hearts,

my friends must be so sick

of hearing about you

when the only words 

that come out of my mouth

are "Dude," your name,

and the phrase "so fucking cool."

The other day I checked my phone

and it said the time was 11:11

and so of course I had to make a wish

and you were the first thing I thought of,

like what the fuck?

It's so disgusting.

But

I'm smiling more lately

the sky isn't necessarily more blue

than it was before,

but fuck me if it doesn't look like it is,

and my friends tell me something in me

has change, but just something little,

they tell me I'm still me,

it's just that I'm me, but happy.

I guess what I'm saying is

thank you for

this gift

you have given me

thank you

for the gift of you.