Billionth

For the billionth time I broke my own heart again. 

I let go of a loved friend. 

I hurt you and I didn't mean to, 

I wish I could take it all back and start a new. 

You got to me. 

And I pushed you away the only way I knew how,

Throwing caution to the wind like a fool.

Now left to suffer threw what is left behind.

I never knew you to be this unkind. 

I should of never gone there with you, 

Carelessly dreaming of a future I know would never be true.

I just wish I wasn't the one that fucked up so bad, 

Yet again breaking my own heart in to another billion pieces.