Gasping air, racing heartbeat,

My mind is racing, as if I was loosing

Every minute, second and hour of life

Vaporing away, dulgeing into darkness

My body shivers & shakes, wants to lunge

But it's frozen, as if I was emerged 

In a deep frozen lake, with no one to 

Rescue me, I lye, gasping air, racing heartbeat...This is my enemy, Anxiety

Some days are better than other,

Some nights are harder than most,

I awake to the beaming bright light of dawn,

Only to feel a five second rush of happiness, before I go twirling, twisting,

Plunging down, as if that is all

The world will let me have, just 5 seconds of happiness before my hero takes hold... This is my depression

It hurts to move, to just raise my pen 

to write, may be the death of me

My body is broken, cold, and lonely,

As if it was vanishing into the depths of hatred,

Killing the pain with one fight left, 

Drains every inch of energy in my soul,

As I kneel to pray, I ask for the pain to stay, just one more love-making scene...For my pain is my lover! 

(C) 2017 JAnn Bowers of Echoic