i miss everything we never had.

i miss all the imagined conversation's i'd have with my pillow pretending you were lying next to me

i miss all the lonely car rides i'd take driving in circles pretending you and i were taking a joyride into neverland

i miss all the words that i was never brave enough to speak out loud that i'd just tell you in my dreams

i miss all the futures i imagined for us that i knew could never happen

i miss all the fun we never had and all these lies i'd tell myself every day while you existed in my imagination

i miss every single thing we never had the chance to have because i screwed up. and i want you to know that.