Trapped

Trapped inside and unwavering mind

It’s laughing and joking and being unkind

It’s screaming, poking, whispering lies

Closing me off from others and ignoring my cries

Squeezing tighter and not letting go

Take a seat and watch the show

The pressure is building, about to explode

“You’ve fallen for it again” my mind laughs and goads

Trying to breath but my chest is constricting

Needing to move but body is resisting

Darkness swirling and closing in

Multiple layers flashing I see a skull with a grin

Craving someone with a reassuring touch

Then running and hiding as it becomes too much

Clawing at my insides and ripping them to shreds

As I look to unwind the mess of interlocking threads

Fighting with something that won’t let go

Another experience I’ll have to forego

Tears burn like acid as I try not cry

Adding to the pain and the scars as I wait to die

Locked in by a mind with an ever changing guise

Trying to hide from its trickery but become paralysed

As my heart beats faster trying to get free

A small part of my mind tries to escape being me