Dissolved.

If I get drunk today, then can I forget about tomorrow?

Or would you let me just sip on my happiness until I can make it real?

You weren’t mine, but you helped me forget.

And now we’ve managed to cut through every degree of separation.

Or maybe those just never existed in this small town.

Or I shouldn’t exist in this small town.

Now my sleep and wake have become too similar

Anxiety has manifested itself as a plague

Chasing me out of sleep and wake

leaving me on the ledge of insanity

I am teetering

soon to be falling

soon

to

be

crashing.

Maybe into you.

Maybe into a convenient stranger.

Definitely into something worthless for a while.

I fade in and out.

I am a drop of dye in a tall drink of water.

I swirl,

And burst into clouds.

Then I dissolve.

And everything is a touch blue.

This isn’t about you.

It is about disappearing.

It’s about the slow dissolve

and the lift away.

I lift away.