A Drop In The Desert.

Waking up, darkness surrounds, 

breath catches in my throat, please,

I plead, help, I'm lost in the sounds, 

Terrified, don't want to be space-bound

it's just as avoidable as a lethal disease.

Darkness is blinding, where am I?

only hearing the words I never said, 

it's too much to take, I begin to cry, 

I never got the chance to say good-bye, 

Pain in my chest, it begins to spread. 

I get up fast, refusing to bow down, 

hold my head up high with resistance, 

Silently I pray, don't you let me drown,

sand beneath my feet, like a ghost town,

I have killed them by my mere existence.

Slowly I take my steps, breathing deep, 

Refusing to feel, to make me remain, 

My heart was, no is, yours to keep, 

maybe now I might get some sleep, 

Maybe if I do this I won't feel pain. 

Wandering the desert of my mind, 

step by step, swallowing my fears, 

leaving the ones I love far behind, 

wondering what I will ever find,

attempting to dry my own tears. 

It's been hours now, and I'm trying, 

ignorant to the thirst, praying for rain, 

help me, please, its like I'm dying, 

I know you're there, and you're crying, 

I'm not there, I can't ease your pain. 

I've been searching, looking around, 

but I haven't found a single drop, 

of you, of life, of me, I confound, 

its all poisoned, even if it was found, 

Please, help me find at least a drop.