Prepared to Exit

I decided to

Paint my toenails pink

Because usually

I kept them black 

And as I colored my face

With rouge and mascara

My blood drained

Leaving my flesh

Pale and ready 

To walk upon

The rocks wet with

Low lying fog and

Embracing my stance

I looked to the sun

Hiding in the mist

With my bare toes

Curled over the edge

Of the world and

My doomed mortality

And I resigned myself 

To my God and

To the Universe 

Her eyelids bowing

With acceptance and 

Palpable empathy

And as I fell 

Into oblivion's mouth 

I succumbed to the earth

And into

Her open arms

Spread by the ocean

Below crashing as

I hovered in time and 

Taking a pause in limbo

Before mercy's greeting

And I waded above

My forecasted funeral 

With imminent grief 

Resonating in

Shades of grey chaos

To forgive the mourners

Lost in

Their muffled cries and

Behind their veiled faces

They sought answers 

To the conundrums

Of fate and

My choice to die