The desperate attempt to change when one’s actions do not meet one’s values and expectations.

In order to become what I want

I must turn into everything I hate

What value, what purpose

Is the reason for my fate

I must become the monster

I killed so long ago

Die the death of the champion

Reincarnate as the foe

You show me the answer

One way to ease the pain

'Pull the trigger' you whisper

So you can win the game.

But NO!

I will not do it

I WONT LET THEM IN

I would rather die the bastard

Than let you win.